need to rant

part1 written friday 30 sept

need to rant very badly. just done my linear algebra mid term test. it was just short of a total disaster. sigh. it was a 1 hr test. started doing. qn 1 went ok. took 25 minutes then panicked when realised that there was only half hr left to do the other 3 qns that are much tougher. so quickly rush thru qn 2. it was on the bus that i realised that i made a serious error there. A^2=I can be changed into A^2-I=0, then (A-I)(A+I)=0, A=plus/minusI. didn't do that in the test. i screwed up. sigh. then qn 3 and 4. i could only do half of them. the other half was left blank. sigh sigh. sob sob. first time in my life that i came out of a maths test seriously feeling that i'm going to fail very very very badly. so sad. hope they mark it on a curve thingy cos i heard other people complaining that they were going to fail too. so maybe it's not just me. just depressing all the same.

haven't studied much for genes n soc tmr. i only really studied the online cd roms. :p heck lah. i'll look through the notes in the bus. anyway, it's just a gem. so not too bad if fail. of course better if don't fail lah, then can clear my gem requirements this sem.

other depressing stuff, i need to learn the psalm for this sunday that i haven't touched since last sunday. and i have to learn "gloria" that i discovered the choir learnt yesterday. and do my maths tutorial cos i better go and do a qn on the board on monday if i want to get ANY class participation points at all.

anyway, for the first time in my life, i ponned choir for no official reason. i stayed home to study linear algebra. (which may have been a waste considering how disasterous the test was) yup, wonder what hui jun's going to say. anyway, apparently they've secured the carolling slot at shangri-la on 24 and 25 dec. i told felicia to put me on the 25th slot so that won't clash with church stuff but....

this year, (read from dawn's blog) church choir isn't going to do the 24th midnight mass. the illogic of fr khoo at work. apparently, he kinda banned us from doing the high mass this time round, giving it to ronald (something about not wanting any one choir to dominate high masses. which is BS imo.) and the best part? ronald DOESN"T WANT the midnight mass. there's no logic. idiot. and btw, i don't think i'll be attending the 10am 25th mass cos of the nus carolling afternoon slot. because i thought the church choir is going to be doing midnight mass so i purposely kept 24th free to handle church stuff. but now... #$%&** fuck. (better stop before i get sued for disturbing the peace)

right. really pissed about that but moving on. this morning, had an interesting time observing people falling sleep during english lecture. somehow, madelena gets more and more boring as time passes. and she doesn't give us break either so after the first hour, we all kinda zone out. lucky there's not that much yet that isn't found inside the textbook. so at least can go home and swallow the textbook and still get it. oh, happy thing, we finally handed up the makan/sotong project. at last. can throw out all the resources from my comp. it's over!!!!!!

bought myself a bracelet at the bazaar at the central lib. so nice. i like it. it's got silver dolphins on it and a nice chunky feel. :D duan hui bought herself a mp3. it's a bit like mine. bit fatter than mine but her's is nicer colour (red). and the usb can connect anywhere, unlike sumi's and jas's zen and apple. that one needs special software but duan hui's is like mine, can connect anywhere and transfer music from anywhere.

what else? oh ya, the bazaar had a 2nd hand book sale too. bought books (3 for $10). got "white oleander", "wild swans" and "the templar revelation". very pleased with the last one. if i bought it elsewhere, it would definately have cost at least 20 plus. but here. yay! and sumi was so jealous cos apparently she wanted to buy those books but didn't for some reason. haha! she can borrow them if she promises to return my other stuff.

oh ya, a juicy bit of thing. go ahead and infer anything you want but, for reasons best known to myself, i downloaded a 15 second porn clip the other day. there were no restrictions or anything. didn't watch it though. it needed a special licence thingy that i couldn't get. so i thought, never mind, i try on my other computer. and there, i was told that it was coded in some way that windows media player couldn't handle. so. haha! so this proves, porn isn't as readily available as people think.

moving on. dr phillips showed that bmw short movie that guy ritchie made, the one starring madonna. it was HILARIOUS. i'm going to try to put it here. it's 7mins long. the driver drove the bmw like initial d. gosh. the best part was at the end when madonna flew out of the car, onto her butt in front of hordes of paparazzi and discovered that she spilled her coffee down the front of her pants. haha! but the bitch character she plays deserves it.

hmm...should i talk something about clay? yes i will. (can't resist) it's not really about him. it's about a song he sang. "Love of my life" originally by michael w. smith. i came across it while surfing one day. oh. my. god. it's so sweet. i just melted listening to it. it's one song that will be played at my wedding (if i get married). definitely going to put it as my background music. the lily song is getting boring.

alrighty. all for now. ranted enough. more or less happier now. :D anyway, need to sleep for tmr. to be continued...

part 2 written 1 oct

just came back from biotech exam. it wasn't as bad as i thought it would be. surprising. i think i'll do ok for this one. seemed quite easy. i finished in half hour. of course there were some weird questions (something about dideoxyribonucleonic acid. had no idea what that was.) haha! not bad lah.

andrew's going for his graduation ceremony in a while. i'm not attending. no point. i'm gonna stay at home and slack and take advantage of having the house to myself. which means watching tv, playing computer, blasting my music, banging on the piano and generally making a ruckus that i can't when there are people at home.

alrighty. the end. haha!